The girls had a playdate today.
I finally figured out what's nagging at me, I just can't figure out the whole thing.
Every time we meet up, I see so much of my kiddo in her baby sis, which is to be expected. But it finally occurred to me I'm seeing S treat kiddo alot like kiddo treated me early on.
What that means, I don't know. Is she trying to bond and feeling insecure? Is she unsure her current role with her sis since they don't live together? It's very obvious they love each other. S thinks our kiddo hung the moon.
I'm reminded of our attachment therapy with kiddo. S is acting like she wants to be the "leading lady", a tad bossy, but sorta sweet about it. She definitely wants her own way, but on some level, I really get the feeling that it's not about wanting her own way, but seeing if she can get her own way and if she deserves it.
I want so bad for this little angel to do better with her therapy in residential this time and be ready to be a family girl when she gets out. I want her to find a family that will treasure her the way we do kiddo. I want her to know what it's like to be spoiled and loved the way she deserves to be.
Not sure which of the 4 of us enjoyed today the most.