I believe in signs.
Some may think it is silly and stupid, but yeah, I sorta believe in signs. I am a solitary person and tend to look for and see signs and magic everywhere. It helps me keep hope.
'Life is not merely a series of meaningless accidents or coincidences, but rather, it's a tapestry of events that culminate in an exquisite sublime plan.'
Last week, one of my adoption buddies sent me a profile of a child that she thought would be PERFECT for us. We'll call her Princess C. I reviewed her message and all the way down to the color and stripes on the shirt, her profile pic looks eeriely like my school picture at that age. It literally stopped my heart for a split second to see her picture and the similarility between her picture and mine and goose bumps went up my arms. As I made the bank deposit for work that night, I was sitting in the bank line thinking how I bet my parents would like her. I was thinking specifically my dad, as I've had that thought about my mom numerous times along the way.
This morning, I was headed to work as I always do, but I for whatever reason, got sidetracked and drove to the middle school. Imagine my surprise when I got there. I was mildly embarrassed, hoped nobody I knew saw me since we don't have kids and I left. I am hoping it was a sign that I would soon be driving our child there, instead of a sign that I'm losing my mind and in the early stages of alzheimers.
I got to work and I had an e-mail from our adoption worker, asking if we could be available to interview on Princess C on October 15th.
October 15th, incidentially, is my mommys birthday. She's been gone almost 5 years and there isn't a time I haven't wished I could go to her and talk all this thru and share the journey with her.
Could that date be a sign?
One can hope.
'I think we make our own decisions, I just think that fate sends us little signs, and it's how we read the signs that determines whether we're happy or not.'
Serendipity is the movie from which the quotes come from. Whether we're chosen or not, I can look at these fun little coincidences as signs that somehow give me hope.
I think I'll be on cloud 9 for the next few days that we actually finally have an interview.