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Saturday, May 12, 2012

Happy? Mothers Day

If we don't open the door we will stay behind the same door, do we like what is behind THIS door.........
Baby Steps, open the door slowly.................
But eventually the door is wide open.............
Does not matter how long it takes to open the door there is no timing, it just is.............

As it is meant to be for NOW............


I will not be attending church tomorrow, because it’s Mothers Day, and I choose not to be present at that moment when all the moms are recognized. Nothing against moms, I personally feel like I had the best mom ever, but about my life.  Every church I’ve attended there is a point in the service where the pastor says, “I’d like all you mothers to stand” and everyone applauds as women of all ages rise and smile. Prizes given for the most kids, the oldest, the most recent moms, etc.  Then they pass our flowers and you either refuse to take the flower or carry it around and feel like an idiot. 

Yeah, I’d prefer to be a mom. How many years did I hear “But you don’t understand, moms…..”.  So this single boycotted day of the year is my protect against the imperfections and unfairness in my life. 

Moms deserve recognition, but what about the rest.  Maybe acknowledge that some are not moms by choice, but some are not moms simply because life took another path. Some try and try and yet plans constantly thwarted. Nobody understands that pain except those who have experienced it themselves. 

So, on Mothers Day, I’m allowing my desire for giving life to beat without shame, take care of myself and allow myself to dream. I can’t hide my life just because it’s the one I didn’t hope for. Why should I stand in church, hypocritically pretending that the pain, anxiety and anger aren’t there. Stay silent, and the world suffers. Speak up for those that you support. Be a light in a dark world.
oh, and get this....our adoption agency sent me a Mothers Day card? Clueless much?


1 comment:

  1. My sister sent me a mother's day card too. I don't think she meant to offend me but she can't possibly understand how mother's day feels for someone who is infertile. I hope you had a relaxing Sunday at home. :)

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